If you feel that drinking is taking over your life or you are drinking too much, do something quick ! the longer you leave it the harder it becomes.

Simon.

Where to start ? At the age of 15 I lost my father who was 34 to a stroke, my mother who I had been living with is an alcoholic, they were seperated !. By the age of 17 I had been living with my stepmother and her new boyfriend in my fathers house ! I started to experiment with soft drugs and had the odd drink but mostly Hash which lead to LSD and Speed followed by Exstacy. At the age of 19 I began drinking whilst taking drugs and took it to a new level. It then started to affect my personal relationships as I lost friends and began to do things which I would later regret.

At 25 I had gone from talking most drugs and drinking to just Cocaine and Booze, which I still at 35 more or less stick to. During the last 16 years I have gone periods for as long as 9 months without anything niether `Booze or Drugs´, of which during these period i have a complete change of life style ! ie: I get healthy, fit, eat well and tell myself I will never drink again. Unfortunately for me this never last and each time I relapse things become worse than the last time, I lose everything I had built up !. I have been prescribed tablets, gone to therapy and basically gone through all the right channels.

The problem I have is that I am now suffering from the consequences of this life style and have been having problems with depression and violent mood swings making me impossible to live with. Until Christmas I had been sober almost 6 months and this year I have been sober.

I really would like to get through this year without any misshaps and really for the rest of my life, I have lost so much in the past and feel like some support my help me to achieve this.

Please could you give me some advice, many thanks.

Simon.