Afternoon everyone. Just been for a 2 and a half hour walk, man it's hot in London today. Was starting to get quite anxious and thinking of ways that "drinking would be ok tonight, wouldn't it, job start still 6 days away?" It's irrational thinking and I know it's the booze and the habitual nature of my drinking causing it.
Csousa - I hear you. Some friends have given up altogether on me - not because of the drinking per se 'cos I still think I successfully hide it (how dumb is that?) but because of the irrational behaviour when I am drinking. I almost always drink to excess alone - I don't want people to see me in that state, drinking myself into oblivion every night. Drinking is a lonely addiction, especially when you start hiding bottles, which I did do when I stayed with my sister earlier in the year.
Kep, you just sound so down. I feel for you. You and me and Sian - any others I forgot, we all need to get to day three tomorrow so stay strong. We can do it. I think in the short term, let's just all work together to get to the next day. Each day we will feel better. Anyone having any day two symptoms they are struggling with, mine is just shocking anxiety and knowing I won't sleep again tonight?
Migs, oh god, what happened? Really hope that you are ok. I broke my arm last Feb - I was home alone drinking as usual and slipped when I got off the couch I was that drunk. And I slept with it broken until the next day as I was so drunk the pain didn't kick in till then
Everyone else, going into day 4 and beyond - good luck. I don't know how many of you are readers out there but I have found getting into a good novel has helped me a little as a distraction. My devil is day 3, which is tomorrow (ie don't make it to day 4) - ugh.
Mills, food make you feel better and keep you from drinking? Hope so