Blood hell I was ill.
Head throat couldn’t sleep.
Lot better now.
Tomorrow I’m hoping to be reborn

Thanks leslans.
Just doing some beans on toast then retire to bed room & film on MacBook.
So tired. Loved my nap but had an alarm as want to start eating better.
So food, watch film in bed in case I pass out

Few more cans in fridge then I’m done

Thanks both as I’ve said find this site real good. Lushforlife listening helping me. Going to have a nap now as only got about 3 hours or less overnight. Have booked the day off tomorrow so napping should be okay. Eaten half a big butchers pork pie & a large bag of spicy rib knickknacks. Just need a...

Just had a chat. Told her I need to stop. Need her to understand as lots of people don’t. Have emailed to see if these sessions suit me. Thanks, Pig Glad you're taking steps to help resolve things, pm'd you if you want to talk. Hope tomorrow is a brighter day. Moira xx Thanks for the chat Moira. I ...

I slept a little after headache subsided. I really need to knock booze on the head. Drinking what’s left today & going to eat plenty Then I go sober. Probably not going to do the challenges until I have a couple of months under my belt. Thanks to all for listening. I do feel like a child though. Whi...

I think the Samaritans are very used to people not knowing what to say. I've bent their ear a fair bit in the past, usually when drunk. It'd be a good thing to reach out I think. (BTW the Breathing Space line Moira mentioned is only of you live in Scotland, the Sams are all over) Thanks sally. I ha...

Just had a chat.
Told her I need to stop.
Need her to understand as lots of people don’t.
Have emailed to see if these sessions suit me.
Thanks,
Pig

Yeah thanks Trojan. You guys are great. Don’t really need to taper but think I will tomorrow. Can’t believe I’m sitting here smoking. But I’m finding it quite relaxing. Don’t mind if she leaves me. Said to her a few times she can if she wants be she has many problems & needs me. Might give her a cal...

Yeah deanna.
I know. Finding it hard to actually drink at the mo.
Feel ill.

Yeah Moira.
I want to get back to funny things.
Maybe a pm would be good.
Bob Hoskins says it’s good to talk.
I want to get mentally better.
Just so many things.
I don’t think the Samaritans could help.
I need to sort this.

You are right Trojan & I really appreciate your message. I’m suffering right now. Hate being a burden. Need to sort this out don’t I. I’d love to be normal like yourself. I respect & think you’ve achieved the ultimate goal. Your replies are always useful to me. I just need to listen & sort myself ou...

I'm so glad you've come to that decision pork chops, how's your mood? Think I slept about 9 hours, keep getting sore heads but drinking like a fish, AF of course. Ruby xx My mood is bad at the mo R&T Think I need someone to talk to. But not family. Friends have their own issues & don’t answer. Thin...

Hi Pork, I've not been around long, so I don't know you, but I do know that social isolation and self loathing are both typical symptoms of alcohol addiction. When you stop drinking you may find that your mood improves more quickly than you would expect. I wish you all the best! SS Thanks sober sel...

Yes. I want to stop though. Going to try real hard tomorrow. I do appreciate the support here. Just seem stuck back drinking. Hate myself thoughts starting to embed in my head again. Lush mentioned AA. But I’m not sure on the whole share circle idea. Pork, I think it's worth trying anything - quitt...

Yes.
I want to stop though.
Going to try real hard tomorrow.
I do appreciate the support here.
Just seem stuck back drinking.
Hate myself thoughts starting to embed in my head again.
Lush mentioned AA. But I’m not sure on the whole share circle idea.

Why do people hate me so much. Can’t take it anymore. I will quit booze as that 14 months sober was good. Lonely friend wise but good. Just have to accept that it’s going to take longer to sort myself out. Just opening my first special brew of my last day drinking. Hate myself also I guess so why wo...

Okay.
I’m a. Alcoholic & need to stop.
Going shop now for beer.
Can’t believe a. Old friend threatened me over the phone for no f ing reason.
Nobody will give me his number either.

I’m up ruby. All be it I’ve had a nap.
A mate been threatening me. I don’t take that lightly but am miles away.
Going to be having words with him when he’s sober.
Putting in pogues now.
Then hopefully go bed.
Love pig

Song lyrics I never knew what they was singing about.

Romanian

Translates to

Hi, hello, it's me, a hooligan
And please, my love, receive happiness
Hi, hi, it's me Picasso
I gave you a beep, and I'm strong
But you must know I'm asking nothing