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Hi everyone

Slept for a few hours at a time last night but was still in bed when OH went away which is unusual.

Phoned the surgery got an appointment with the nurse for next week then later someone else phoned about the discharge letter and pain relief. They said they would leave a message for the doctor to phone me on Wednesday as they would not want me trailing away down there :o Been walking a bit today round the house.

Cleaner came for 2 hours this morning so at least the house looks a bit better.

Gosh it is roasting out there all the windows are wide open 8-)

Tadpole did you get your cello lesson?

Martha how was work?

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Hi everyone.

I’m in bed. Had a couple of hours sleep before my first night shift of three. Glad to be right back on the sober saddle today. It was so weird last night. As I was drinking the wine I could honestly feel my whole demeanour change. I recognised a sudden slip back into an ‘alcoholic psrsonality’ Whilst I was drinking the wine and watching the contents of the bottle disappear. I didn’t like it and I didn’t like me. I was suddenly scared that this was it and I had slipped back to my bad habits. It was really not nice.

I managed to get to my cello lesson and it was a relief that I’ve been practicing hard. I could have done more but Work has seriously been intense so time hasn’t been on my side. But I came out feeling that we had achieved something.

Zippy you’re getting there.

How was work Martha?

I’m going to get up now and have a coffee. No gym today, that’s two days off I’ve had this week :o

T xx

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Morning all.

I’m just back from work. One night down so two to go.

It was so quiet last night. I think it may be the calm before the storm tonight.

Have a good day and I’ll catch up with u after some lovely sleep!

T xx

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Hi everyone

Never did much today fell asleep watching Homes Under The Hammer :shock: so went back to bed for a bit and got up for a shower later.

Leg is still swollen see what the doctor says tomorrow.

My sister has managed to find out that the people who bought Mum’s house are selling it again. Some cock and bull story about their son was going to buy their house but that has fell through :? Think the work required on the roof put them off but they never got a structural survey done. The house must be in a right state by now with damp and has been empty for over a year.

Holiday transferred to January at a cost of £1123 which the insurance will pay for. They need to mitigate their losses and cheaper than paying £5500 cancellation charges :o

Tadpole hope you had a lovely sleep. I am sleeping kind of sitting up at the moment but with 3 pillows it is a bit better.

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Hi zippy. That’s a lot goIng on for you and I’m guessing as you’re not very mobile it gives you time to sit and think a bit more about things than necessary? Hope you’re ok.

I’m back at work. Just tonight and tomorrow then a couple of days off. The office I’m in is boiling hot and I’ve got work lined up already. Hopefully tonight will go quick.

Love to all.

T xx

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Morning all

Another sunny day here 8-)

Tadpole yes I suppose I am over thinking things a bit :(

Managed to sleep on my good side for a bit last night - bliss

No plans for today see what happens :)

Enjoy your day everyone <:)>
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Yay zippy...bliss!!! Glad you got some comfort...at last. Let’s hope this is a sign of some improvement?

I had a hectic night. I’ve left work feeling paranoid. Hoping I’m over thinking now as I’m so tired.

I’m bed. Time for some sleep.

Until later.

T xx

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morning guys x
been away again as per usual :roll:

glad to see familiar ppl here, sorry to hear of the bad situations some of you are in <:)>

kept my job by the skin of my teeth :?

but not sure how long it will last, im still drinking so walking a very fine line. i cant understand how i can stop so easily but when i really need to, for my jobs sake, i cant. its like that eaf is fully in the driving seat & set to destroy me.

obviously im still depressed, booze is obviously not helping, im away from home & my girls to work here.
wife is soon having that other mans baby

i am just self medicating.

my sort of on/ off girlfriend asked me whats on my bucket list. and do you know i couldnt think of a thing.
its like i see no joy in anything.
took me all day to come up with 2 things

how bout you guys?
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Morning cc.

We miss you here you know. Im sorry things are bad for you on the booze front. It sounds like a very difficult situation to be in right now, especially being away from those who you love. Why not try sticking around with us?

T xx

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Hi guys

CC :shock: good to see you. Please take heed of the mess I am in at the moment and do something :(

Had to get up early today as British Heart Foundation came to collect some furniture. I like donating to them since Mum passed away with heart failure. We ordered new furniture months ago before my fall.

I am feeling the difference day by day. Can now walk upstairs without the stick but still to take it easy for the first 6 weeks as there is a chance of dislocation :shock:

Dr phoned yesterday swelling is normal but she was making sure I am still taking the blood thinners. Keep putting Sudocrem on the friction burn sore thing on my bum and a plan to wean me off the morphine 8-)

I am at the nurse next Monday to check the wound so can ask about the sore if need be.

Lovely sunny day again 8-)

You off today Tadpole?

CC I have not had a drink since 13th March and I won’t lie I think about it but I have no way of getting any and I could not risk falling again. Guess what I am still here and saving a fortune :shock:

Hugs to all and please post if you are lurking <:)>
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Hey zippy. Progress!!!! I’m seriously pleased to read this.

Yes I’m off today. Not a bad night last night but I’m obviously tired. I’ve had about 3 hours sleep so trying to persuade myself out of bed so I can sleep tonight.

Sun is also shining here. I’m collecting my dog from my parents soon and I reckon my mum will want to go to town. I just want to stay in until the gym tonight and get stuff done so I can relax tomorrow :cry:

Anyway. I need to get up.

T xx

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Hi folks

How was your day Tadpole? I have been up and down at the front door :( Dodgy folk wanting to power wash the drive then a parcel for a neighbour :twisted:

Watched Britain’s Best Home Cook my god it was so boring I fell asleep. In bed now.

Might go out for tea tomorrow for a change of scene.

Saturday is meant to be roasting 8-)

Night all <:)>
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Morning.

Careful zippy, don’t over do the hip! I’ve hardly slept. Bloody night shifts!!! I drank yesterday too. Not loads but enough to make me not want to do what I would historically do as in drink again today. Back to town with my mum today. I really need a day to catch up on myself but my mum has already decided on the shops she wants to go to so the day is pretty much set.

Have a good day zippy and anyone else who is looking in.

Back later.

T xx

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Morning Tadpole

I am waiting on a signed for letter otherwise I wouldn’t answer the door. The guy came for the parcel last night at 9.45pm :shock: I was asleep and OH never heard the door at first. He looked out the window and saw the guy walking off. Imagine going to someone’s house at that time of night :shock:

Thinking about going out for tea tonight just to get out. Tomorrow OH is going to wash the plastic garden furniture so I can sit out next week. My friend from my old work is coming to visit.

Enjoy your shopping I am missing just going out and wandering about :(

Catch up later <:)>
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Hello everyone. Have been missing from the forum as just exhausted and overwhelmed with work and busy with family life when off of work. How is everyone? Zippy, are you recovering alright? Tad, sounds like you are exhausted from work also, but doing well I hope.

I'm still not managing to abstain on my days off and my tolerance is lowered due to fatigue and lack of sleep. But right now I'm in the midst of a string of night shifts so I am sober.

Just wanted to stop in and say hello. Swordie, Cc, hope you are hangin in there also. Best wishes to all.

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ScarletB good to hear from you ;)? Your work sounds hectic :(

Tadpole how was your day?

Didn’t go out for tea as OH was late home. He gets his car back from the garage tomorrow so we will go out. It is a big car which is easier for me getting in and out. His courtesy car is a hatchback and I was toiling to swing my legs round to get in :(

Night all catch you tomorrow <:)>
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Afternoon all.

Just a quick post from me as I’m at work. A friend came over last night with wine and we drank. I can’t believe I allowed myself to slip so quickly and without a thought really. I woke up scared this morning. I’m determined not to go back to where I was with the drinking. It was difficult for me to admit it and I didn’t want to post this but I felt I had to. I’m going out tonight after work but I’m collecting my husband from his work at 10
So I’ll be driving and will need to remain alcohol free. Determined not to slip.

T xx

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Hi dear peeps,

The hard work being done here gives me a lot of strength. There are many ways besides drinking that we abandon ourselves. Now sober for a little bit, when things go a little off and some kind of drama begins to happen, I am finding that when I look I see I have made some kind of move, some kind of decision, against my best interest. Maybe this is what we are really learning. How to stand with and for ourselves.I jotted down the following. Not sure the source atm. Maybe it will help someone else.
  • “I pledge allegiance to myself and to my Soul for which I stand. I honor my goodness, my gifts, and my talents. I commit to remaining loyal to myself from this moment forward for all of my days.
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Hi all.

Work done for a day. Strange day really. I think someone at work has it in for me and it’s been noticed by others. They mentioned it today and then laughed about it and I went a bit mad. So I’m going to nip this one in the bud immediately.

Anyway. I’ve bunked off my friends bash tonight. I wouldn’t know anyone there and honestly, in my sort of job the last thing one wants to do after work is socialise! I’ve made the excuse that I’m still at work. I doubt I would have been missed anyway.

Back on the sober train. How’s everyone else?

T xx

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Hi guys

Was up at 5am couldn’t sleep on back or side so got up to watch Gogglebox. Looked out the window and a deer was walking along the street :shock: I have seen it before years ago. It went into the trees behind the houses.

Went for fish and chips today sat out it was nice. Managed to walk about 100 yards outside with the sticks - first time outside :? I see Prince Philip is walking about. That is good he is the benchmark :lol:

Came home and I sat in the garden while OH cut the grass. His boss asked him yesterday if he was going to be in more from now on :shock: He is livid he always made the hours up at night or at the weekend and other people down tools as soon as their little cherubs are ill :twisted:

I am sure there are HR procedures for this kind of situation :|

Glad you are having a sober evening Tadpole. That is rotten about your work.

DoneandDone good to see you ;)?

In bed now so hugs to all groupies. Night night <:)>
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