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Posted: 14 Oct 2019 10:51
I caved last night Tarzan. Not as much as I wanted. I drank a bottle of wine and so wanted more but didn’t give in and went to bed. Feeling a bit tired today, which is actually good as I’m back on the dreaded nights tonight so I’ll be off to bed this afternoon.
Posted: 14 Oct 2019 15:02
Drank this weekend. I seem to be in a v negative mindset at the moment and struggling to shift it.
I know I can stay away from the booze when I put my mind to it but just seem to be lacking my recent motivation at the moment
Posted: 14 Oct 2019 18:24
So we are all on the same page, you, me and Tarzan. I managed 11 days until last Saturday when I had literally a single large red after work. After seeing my parents yesterday afternoon I sank a bottle of white. But it’s atill progress, huge progress. I can see your progression too. Try to be really strict today/tonight to get back on track and then seize it. The first day/night really can be the hardest can’t it?
My first night shift of three is looming. Oh the dread. I couldn’t sleep this afternoon and I’ve missed the gym. Double blow. On the flip side, I’m firmly back on track and I’m seeing one bottle and one large glass isn’t so bad in the grand scheme.
Posted: 14 Oct 2019 20:04
are you guys keeping drink diaries? keeping tabs on units?
im going in on wed morning !!
Posted: 14 Oct 2019 21:24
I’ve managed to stay away from the drink tonight so hopefully will get a decent sleep and wake up feeling a bit more positive. Missed spin tonight though as I’m feeling too tired and despondent to leave the house.
No I don’t keep a drink diary CC. I’m not sure I want to know how many units I put away when I’m at my worst.
Good luck for Wednesday. Will you still be able to post in here whilst you there?
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 11:36
good luck for tomorrow CC we're thinking of you
I do keep a drink diary of units so I can see the trends
feeling terrible today - think it's a hangover with vertigo - think i'm gonna have to go home and go to bed
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 16:50
cheers guys. not allowed phone for 2 weeks. not sure then after.
im packing up stuff now, i went and printed a photo of me and my girls to put in my room.
im more anxious about my turn to cook more than anything! and i love to cook! .
not planning to drink in the morning,so will be relying on the doctor to give me the librium when i arrive.
im currently on approx 20 units a day.
hope u feel better tarzan
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 16:52
Best of luck Chris. We will all be thinking of you. Didn’t think you’d be allowed your phone for a while, try to remember to let us know how you’re doing when the two weeks are over. All the best.
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 16:56
Very brave chriscole. Very brave. Cheering on from the sidelines mate. Cowboy.
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 18:00
It's a really good move Drew
I hope it all goes well for you - everyone here on BE will be rooting for you
Posted: 15 Oct 2019 18:25
Lots of support and best wishes from me too
(you know me by another name... still blue).
Posted: 16 Oct 2019 06:44
thanks guys,i will keep you posted x
Posted: 16 Oct 2019 06:49
All the best Drew
Posted: 16 Oct 2019 08:32
Had a big argument with idiot OH last night as he’d got in from work and house was a mess. Well actually it wasn’t a mess prob by a lot of people’s standards, was just stupid thing like pile of washing on landing, bed not made etc as I’d had to rush to work. Normally I’m in first so these things get tidied before he gets home but he happened to finish early. So of course I’m effing useless and the house is in a mess because I’d been drinking at the weekend. I did remind him he is pissed every night of the week and actually does eff all apart from work, get in and sit up in the loft drinking endless cans of beer or cider eating shit which he didn’t like very much. Then he started demanding where my wages go as I’m always broke and I’m sure the implication here was that I must always be broke because I’m spending it on drink.
Anyway I took dogs for a long walk and the thought of going past the shop and buying a drink crosses my mind but I resisted. Sorry for the rant. He annoys me so much sometimes. If he was tee total I could probably accept what he says a lot more gracefully but he’s not, he’s an alcoholic, plain and simple. At least I know I am but he’s just bloody delusional
On another note, hope all are good!
Posted: 16 Oct 2019 09:51
hey sleepy - must be hard when that happens - my OH and I have fallen out of love which is sad but we're still friends so I don't have that sort of issue thankfully
you did the right thing and should be proud of not hitting the booze despite provocation - well done you
love to all
Posted: 16 Oct 2019 10:31
Hi sleepb well done for not caving in!! Having a walk is good for focus....it's tough when at odds at home, I hope it works out.
Posted: 17 Oct 2019 06:20
Oh sleepy. We have those sorts of arguments all the time, usually me moaning at him though. Excellent you didn’t cave. Hope you’re feeling mighty proud of that!!!
Sooooo, I’m about to finish my third and final night shift of the week. As soon as 7am hits I’ve got 4 days off!!!!!
Feel like I’m on holiday.
Posted: 17 Oct 2019 08:38
hey Tads - holiday good, Sangria bad! Enjoy
love to all
Posted: 20 Oct 2019 09:12
Is everyone ok?? It’s gone quiet.
I’ve been pretty useless on the drinking front I’m afraid. Managed all week then drank at a friends fri then came to my mums yesterday where I’ve also drunk though not the horrendous amounts I’m quite capable of consuming.
Struggling to get in and stay in the AF mindset at the moment and I don’t know why as I normally feel very positive and passionate about trying to achieve an AF life.
Pretty confident I’ll manage to not drink from today until next weekend. I have a Halloween camping trip fri and sat night and as defeatist as it sounds, I’m pretty sure I’ll drink. I think the best I can hope for at the mo is taking every AF day as a bonus and hope I get my sober mojo back ASAP.
How has everyone managed this weekend? Xx
Posted: 20 Oct 2019 09:32
Thank god you’ve posted!!!! I’ve also been a bit of a twit as I’ve had that much needed time off. I’ve
Got the parents visiting for lunch today and I know already it will be a huge trigger. If only I had t had wine when we went for dinner the other night it would
Have all been fine. Anyway, I’m back on three nights from tomorrow so it’s a chance to get back on track. I’m hoping to stay sober until new year eve when I’ve got a massive party I have to attend. Who knows how I’ll feel by then but I need a target.
Hope you feel better soon. I’ll be AF this week. I’ve been doing so well I just need that chance to get back to where I was.