Dxb wrote: ↑
28 Apr 2019 11:54
So here it goes! Been prowling here for a while but just registered. In 40's. Probably been drinking too much, since in my teens, but became a big problem in the last 5 years. (Drinking alone, far too early etc.) Have a lovely life, so no excuses. Can also stop for 1-3 weeks, lead a much happier life, gym, running, feel and look a 100 times better, BUT....... once I start again.......well, you all know how it goes! Husband works away from home, he knows and has told me he'll leave if if I don't sort it out. He's back tomorrow and I'm drinking just now.....why do we do this to ourselves???
Sounds like you've got a good basis for sorting this out.
I think I hadn't properly understood that alcohol is and addiction. It's a more addictive drug than cocaine, and amongst the most damaging, being the only drug that affetcs every cell in yoir body. If were surrounded by people shooting up heroin or out of their skulls on spice all the time, these things were not so much socially acceptable as a powerful norm which was pushed at you, if they were advertised on TV and available 24/7 frequently on special offer, then no doubt society would have similar problems with those too. Alcohol was around too soon, and is too lucrative in revenues, to be treated in the same way. Our government is aware of the various costs of this addiction in money and misery, but the take from sales of it is enormous and so there is no effective action.
Once you understand that it IS an addiction, and that addictions don't just get wiped out (once they're in your brain they're wired there) you're on the way to acceptance, and that's the key to getting sober long term.
If you read back through this thread, there's a wealth of tips and info. Mine are to work through the Allen Carr Easy Way, read the Unexpected Joy of Being Sober, post frequently on here, and take vitamin supplements (B1, B12, Magnesium).
You may be thinking that you'll start on a given date, like Monday or the 1st of the month. I advise that you cease to despise yourself (anyone can get addicted, I even once knew an alcoholic cat) and start despising the drug instead. Chuck it down the sink and start grabbing sobriety right now.
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