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Please post here if you are planning to drink.

Any tips or advice to prevent a relapse, alternatively any of your stories about your own relapses.
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Re: Please post here if you are planning to drink.

Post by SueDenim » 15 Mar 2019 21:25

Well done Pork.

I've just logged on, so missed the lead up; but I am pleased you resisted. <:)>

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Post by Pork » 15 Mar 2019 21:27

Thanks Sue.
Not easy but I think I’ve made to decision now.
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Post by LuckyCat » 16 Mar 2019 16:16

I...think I'm going to get wine. Posted about how I'm feeling in the 2-4 week thread and have been arguing with myself for hours at this point. I honestly have tried to convince myself not to but saying or typing the words it's all getting drowned out by the immature toddler voice just going 'but I WANNAAAAA!!!!' I'll start again in a few days but at the moment I just can't deal with sober life, I want that obvlivion.
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Post by LuckyCat » 16 Mar 2019 16:20

https://medium.com/@SoberBelle/tired-of ... 5a68905656

There may have been a four-minute window of edge-off-ness and then I spent the rest of the night trying to find the four-minute window again. Mostly I found the couch, the remote, and pizza delivery.

This sums it up really well, and I know this is what will happen. Why would I think those 4 odd minutes worth it?? And yet somehow I do.
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Post by free flow » 16 Mar 2019 16:43

Hey LolaCat, that describes my drinking to a tee :(

I had to have the larger size of wine, spirits whatever it was because the small one or the medium one JUST WEREN'T ENOUGH!

I am not even sure I ever got as many as 4 minutes of that feeling of elation that is so fleeting, and so beckoning, like the Sirens that tempted Odysseus on his voyage, looking so ravishing until they have you in their clutches.

Help the little toddler make the right decision; think of tomorrow morning and how you hope to feel.

Take care <:)> <:)>

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Post by martha » 16 Mar 2019 16:59

LolaCat wrote:
16 Mar 2019 16:16
I...think I'm going to get wine. Posted about how I'm feeling in the 2-4 week thread and have been arguing with myself for hours at this point. I honestly have tried to convince myself not to but saying or typing the words it's all getting drowned out by the immature toddler voice just going 'but I WANNAAAAA!!!!' I'll start again in a few days but at the moment I just can't deal with sober life, I want that obvlivion.
Oh Lola, I get it, I really do. I read your post on the 2 week thread and I get that too.
I hope you can get through today. <:)>
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Post by SoberBoots » 16 Mar 2019 17:31

LolaCat wrote:
16 Mar 2019 16:20
https://medium.com/@SoberBelle/tired-of ... 5a68905656

There may have been a four-minute window of edge-off-ness and then I spent the rest of the night trying to find the four-minute window again. Mostly I found the couch, the remote, and pizza delivery.

This sums it up really well, and I know this is what will happen. Why would I think those 4 odd minutes worth it?? And yet somehow I do.
Take 10 minutes at a time, and distract yourself with anything you can. Any film you want to watch, wardrobe that needs sorting? Cravings don't last very long usually, unlike a hangover, self hatred, shame and a horrible feeling of being back at day 1! Can you remember the last time you felt I'll after drinking? Run the tape forward, you've a choice of that again tomorrow or waking up feeling proud! Beating an addiction is hard, if it wasn't people wouldn't have such problems. Tell you whiney inner child that you decided not to drink and that's it, you're not talking about or thinking about it any more, you're going to do something else instead.
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Post by LuckyCat » 16 Mar 2019 17:34

Thank you loves <:)> Helps so much to know there are people who understand and care.

I sort of managed to talk myself into not buying wine as I walked to the supermarket...was planning a bubble bath, AF beer and an early night and still thinking of doing that...however I did get a bottle for my housemate who is back tomorrow which was bloody stupid because obviously I can drink and maybe replace...

The toddler analogy (not sure if that's the right word!) really helps me because it's not apart from me, it's within me, and I don't see it as evil, just immature and unable to see beyond instant, short-term gratification with no regard for consequences. One way or another I spend a lot of time around children and know that they need firm but kind boundaries that are in their best interests, just like we as people with addiction issues do when it comes to alcohol and other tempting vices. The toddler(brain) should not be in charge of the adult (brain) for good reasons.

Putting on some music now and throwing myself into a bit of cleaning, going to put wine in housemates room and firmly close door but we shall see.

ETA - you snuck in there SB! With great advice, as always. Thank you so much <:)>
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Post by SoberBoots » 16 Mar 2019 17:49

I think of the inner addict as a dog, but a small child is a good comparison. You'd be in a terrible mess if you let your toddler rule! Just conce8on getting to bed sober this evening.
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Post by LuckyCat » 16 Mar 2019 18:02

SoberBoots wrote:
16 Mar 2019 17:49
You'd be in a terrible mess if you let your toddler rule!
Yep! Have spent most of my adult life in said mess, enough is enough.
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Post by SoberBoots » 16 Mar 2019 18:07

LolaCat wrote:
16 Mar 2019 18:02
SoberBoots wrote:
16 Mar 2019 17:49
You'd be in a terrible mess if you let your toddler rule!
Yep! Have spent most of my adult life in said mess, enough is enough.
Me too. It's never too late to start again, but it is foolish to throw away the chance.
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Post by Ruby&Tilly » 16 Mar 2019 19:00

So sorry to hear you're struggling Lola but well done on going to the shops and not buying alcohol (::) , I didn't trust myself to go out last night in case I ended up in the offie. Sounds like you have a plan, but don't hesitate to post if the cravings get out of hand again, besides I've only just made it to the twofers, we were gonna share that gateaux. :lol2:

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Post by Pork » 27 Mar 2019 13:43

Wish I could rule out drinking on holiday but those thoughts are still present.
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Post by Topcat » 27 Mar 2019 14:42

It might be easier if you try and put the "shall I/shan't I" thoughts to one side until the holiday actually becomes a reality Piggy. Then you can decide if you want to at that moment rather than agonising over it beforehand.

Just an idea if it helps Piggy <:)>
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Post by Pork » 27 Mar 2019 15:18

Thanks Topcat.
I mostly do just think about it from time to time.
I want to not drink but I also want to chill with my mate.
Even if I do decide to drink I will not go back to bad times. Hopefully :?
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Post by SoberBoots » 27 Mar 2019 16:58

How difficult would it be to chill with the mate without drinking?

I get bored with AF beer in pubs, but it does serve a purpose, making some occasions doable. Would it help with your holiday? I don't know where you're going, but in Tenerife earlier this year I was surprised to find that every bar and restaurant had AF lager.
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Post by TrueState » 27 Mar 2019 22:56

Hi Pork

Was just wondering if you'd talked with your mate about it? Always hard to predict how other people will respond even when we've known them ages and know them well (or the opposite for that matter). Sometimes the reaction from them can unlock what we really want deep down. Anyway, I hope the internal battle doesn't become all consuming.

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Post by Pork » 28 Mar 2019 06:30

I know the answer from him. \/
Was round another mates for dinner last night & they think I will drink.

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Post by SoberBoots » 28 Mar 2019 06:38

I find most friends have little insight about me and drink. Even the most supportive and understanding, have a detectable inner scepticism about me maintaining it long term, and are always surprised if the subject of it being nearly two years comes up. Most of the others don't think that I ever had that much of a problem. I see my drinking as being entirely about me, and nothing to do with anyone else (this is the perspective that enables me to hang out with drinking friends, go to the pub etc without finding it a challenge to my sobriety). So I don't think you should be influenced by what your firend's think. We all have a wise self, and if we're quiet and listen generally we can hear what it's saying (even if a lot of the rest of us doesn't want to listen!). So I'd listen out for that voice.
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Post by Pork » 28 Mar 2019 06:40

Doctor told me to ignore those voices :?
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