My partner of 2 years has just finished with me because of my drinking. I don't drink every day, but when I do I drink a LOT. It's like I don't know when to stop and I normally end up making a fool of myself in the process.
I've recently gone back to work after 6 weeks off with anxiety/depression. I'm seeing my doctor every few weeks and am currently on Citalopram (20mgs) daily. I've been for an assessment with a counsellor who has said that I'm capable of dealing with this on my own. I just can't see how!
I suppose I drink to calm me down, if I've had a stressful day or am feeling uptight, then a glass of wine or three will usually make me feel better. It also makes me less self concious about my body. I used to self harm a lot a while ago and the thought that my partner has to look at my scars disgusts me.
How can I convince my partner that I'm trying to sort myself out? How do I even start sorting this whole mess out? He hates me right now, and I hate myself for letting things get this bad. I told my counsellor and my doctor that my drinking is under control, but I really don't think it is.
Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble x x
