Crikey, it’s very quiet here. I hope everyone is okay. Life is certainly challenging for most of us at the moment isn’t it.
How is everyone’s garden? I’ve had a lot of rain here, with just a couple of dry days of late! Everything is lush but, like you Rachel, I think I’m solar powered and miss the sun when it’s not about…my batteries need recharging!
I had a busy weekend. Went to see my sister in Wiltshire. It was good to get away, as my brother is still with me and probably for a few more weeks yet, and it’s challenging. He needs support and also works unsociable hours so when I’m about to climb into bed he arrives back from his shift.
wanting a beer and a ‘smoke’. Also my partner is still messing about with his meds, which doesn’t make for a happy me. I had a good chat with my sister about the family and what I’m going through and she was very good and listened, offering support if I need it. It was a relief not to feel alone in all of this. I sometimes wonder how on earth I got myself into this position but it’s not hard to work out that I’ve not made good choices or managed my life too well in the past through drinking. In another week I’ll be 11 months sober and I certainly have more clarity about things…building strength to make changes and stand up for myself and my values, rather than bury my head in the sand and use useless coping mechanisms.
How is your mum Rachel? Have there been any developments? Are you still able to work from home for the time being?
Danny, how did you get on with the vicar? Have you got your Sunday slot playing the organ. Hope you enjoyed your daughters visit.
Luna - what project are you working on at the moment? You haven’t mentioned your difficult neighbour for a bit. Have things settled down?
Pickles…how’s your daughter? And your woofs?
My missy has been a bit funny with me lately. It’s quite difficult for her at home because my brother is a bit unpredictable and she’s witness him lose his temper in the past.
also She’s reluctant for me to touch her at the moment. I was just stroking her a few days ago and she squealed in pain…it was weird and although there appears to be nothing wrong (she doesn’t appear to be in any pain now) she thinks I hurt her!
Not sure how to deal with it to be honest … we’ve always been so close and she’s always been so cuddly. I hoping time will heal and she will realise I don’t want to hurt her.
Just brought a book called Habits of a Happy Brain. It suggests that I can retrain my brain to boost my Seratonin, Dopamine, Oxytocin and Endorphine levels. Watch this space!
Water house plants
Get in touch with friend to organise meet up
Write garden plan … so much to do and have a tip run Sunday
Speak to mum about carpet moths (friend has trouble and mum had some years ago)
Maybe start sorting out study
I want to start writing and creating again!
Have a good day everyone!