I can only assume drinking effects you during & after in a negative way ?Spats wrote: ↑22 Oct 2018 09:24I’m currently finding that I’m asking myself not why I drink and why I’ve been drinking this way for so long, but rather why I want to put myself through this trial of reaching sobriety. What/who is the reason for me to get to the end of this road and regain an alcohol free life?
I know for sure (drunkenness aside) the way I felt was deeply anxious, depressed, hopeless out of control the list is endless really, not many positive points I can think of , yep it's relaxing, inviting and alluring to " check out" of our lives for a few hours, and at times I'd still like to do that, but I know with absolute certainty I cannot get away with it anymore;
The price too high, for a few hours of " perceived" pleasure .
Being sober I can "check in" to my life ,... for the good, bad and downright crappy days too, facing most stuff with clarity and calm.
There has for me been many benefits to remaining sober and not least the freedom from crippling anxiety this would be high on my list . I now have moments of calm in a way I don't believe I would have ever noticed before, like a deep happy sigh within, hard to explain am sorry.
So who/what am I doing this for you ask???
Me... I'm doing this for me ; cos no one but me could truly know how bad I felt inside, my spirit was broke and my life a mess , my family devastated.
It's not easy Spats, but not as hard as living a life where drink is left, right and centre of your mind (talking about my past self)
You can do this if you want it enough.
Will it be hard ? Yep;
Will it be worth it ?
A big fat YES