Addiction doesn’t go away when we stop drinking. It’s probably the most difficult thing to deal with in all this.
Thanks for the reminder Jos So easy to forget that isn't it (because, of course, we want to be able to drink like "normal" people)? Fact that we cannot drink is tough to come to terms with, but come to terms with it we must if we are ever going to live a fulfilling life. For us, there is no moderation. We've crossed over into addiction and it doesn't ever go away.
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When life kicks sand in your face, build a castle.
Hey everyone
Nice to see it so busy on here.
I echo what everyone else is saying cowboy. You've done amazingly and the most important bit of your relapse is you getting back on the sober path so quickly. Keep posting and keep trying. We're all here for you in the virtual world of support.
I've never watched the apprentice. That might be swearing to you avid fans Sorry! I'm trying to catch up on peaky blinders at the mo. Cillian Murphy...... Mmm Mmm
I've managed to not drink since Saturday but know I'm going to have a drink this weekend as have got a wedding doo to go to. Maybe that's giving up before I've even tried?? Will see how it goes.
I've really felt like drinking most days this week. OH had pissed me off so I've automatically thought of going to a girlfriends for a rant and some wine. Old habits
Hope you're all having a good Thursday
X
Thanks BB and all for your posts. It means so much to me that other folks in the these parts get it. I mean really get it.
Not sure about the apprentice discussion. Last time I was hearing about this it was a Donald Trump show?
It's crazy you know. Here I am doing all this research and learning about my inner and better self. Not my ego the other one the watcher. Well the watcher is watching all right. I seem to be on some kind of self destructive auto pilot. Like one of those spaceships in the science fiction that is in some tractor beam and none of the steering or braking or any controls are operational. I walk into a store to purchase booze and I am in a kind of zombie state. The only good (good being relative) thing that happens is that I limit the amount of booze that I buy. And ... usually I don't even drink that.
Perhaps the watcher is interceding. Or perhaps I'm just slowly losing my mind. In any case it would be nice to completely stop.
Tai, TC, JJ =. You're all right. The addiction never stops. It's a kind of curse. But it could be worse. Way worse.
I really am thankful for what I do have and that most certainly includes BE and the cyber friends that I have made in these parts.
It's another day and another opportunity to jump back on my faithful steed. Have a great day all.
The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why. Mark Twain.
Cowboy, how could I not think of your and my old friend Frank Zappa when I heard you say that? Thing is, it needn't be "torture". Frank, as you and I both know, was teetotal and didn't exactly suffer for it, in terms of what he achieved in, and got out of, life
indeed its a curse. hi cowboy !!
i vomit daily now.not from hangover or withdrawals,but because of alcoholic gastritis. i cant wait to quit and start rehab.
a while ago i managed to halt drinking untill 6pm. but thats slipped. i find myself wandering the house at 9am not even wanting a drink but im compulsed to. ( hence my speculation that alcoholism is not a disease,but on a spectrum of OCD. )
once i get my phone back i will keep a diary on my time in rehab here.if peeps are interested.
i vomit daily now.not from hangover or withdrawals,but because of alcoholic gastritis.
I used to suffer with that very badly too Drew. Swallowing OTC meds did nothing to alleviate the problem either (of course). Take heart, it can greatly improve once you are no longer drinking. TCxx
#5 on the 2021 Challenge
When life kicks sand in your face, build a castle.
Good morning all. A diary would be really interesting chriscole/drew
I hope all are ok, Cowboy, are you still there?
Very busy day at work today but I like it like that, well I do when I’ve not been drinking and my head is clear.
I was meant to be going to the cinema with a friend tonight who has cancelled which is fine by me as she would’ve asked about going for a drink after the film.
Hi Sleepy. Yep still here. Not planning to go anywhere. Maybe a bit lost but there are very clear signs along the trail to help me find my way back. One of them being no hangover this morning and does that ever feel good after a few days of waking up feeling shitty. Most of the booze I brought home last night is still in my cupboard - also a good sign.
Staying connected with BE is a good way to keep me moving in the right direction. Towards sobriety.
Have a great AF day folks. Cowboy.
The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why. Mark Twain.
hi everyone - I felt pretty lousy this morning - not alcohol related so didn't post - it seems to have burnt off somewhat during the day so hopefully it was a blip
nothing else to add but thought i'd better keep posting to stay honest
and glad you're feeling better cowboy!
love to all
I’ve been away for a couple of days as I’ve been doing really well and just been so busy catching up on myself. It’s been lovely really. Nice to see some old faces here. I feel like I’m needing to move on but not sure where to go from here. Bit like my career really!
Anyway, I’m at work. Meant to be here u til midnight but I’ve done FA so far and I’m struggling to stay awake.
hi tad. still workin hard hey?
i hope i can get back into work later on.
managed to walk the long walk to spoons today,but cudnt stomach a beer, ended up having half a bottle then puking twice, back home with a 6 pack from aldi.
Sorry but I do have to let my fellow groupies now that I got a Glastonbury ticket! I’m so excited, I’m telling everyone.
Obv I’m already thinking this will be an impossible thing to do sober but for now I’m not letting that thought ruin my excitement.
I know it’s a bit sad to be so happy but it’s been on my bucket list and I’ve had many years, on and off, trying to bag a ticket x
Glasto's an age away Sleepy - you can be good till then and then decide - no need to sweat about it now - just focus on the here and now
Hope your weekend got better CC sounds grim - fingers crossed for the detox though
I'm a bit jaded this morning annoyingly - it got away from me last night a bit - I'll do all the usual restoratives to try to function and get through the day - we all know what they are
you keep on trundling Cowboy you're going the right way?
So easy to forget that isn't it (because, of course, we want to be able to drink like "normal" people)? Fact that we cannot drink is tough to come to terms with, but come to terms with it we must if we are ever going to live a fulfilling life. For us, there is no moderation. We've crossed over into addiction and it doesn't ever go away.
, I’m worried I might get a ban if I do
Sorry! I'm trying to catch up on peaky blinders at the mo. Cillian Murphy...... Mmm Mmm 
