Bright Eye

Messed up again. Just when I thought "this time I will make it" - I bugger it up again. Soddit This is just how this works. The sod it thing is your drinking side of you winning by making you feel it has beaten you which this time it has. You may have lost this battle but it doesn't mean you lost t...

I drink, a lot. I do it when im alone. But I dont want this life anymore..... I started drinking to forget something (which i think I have managed to deal with now).... but ive become addicted and my memory is terrible I cant even remeber the good times now, but if you knew me (unless family or an ...

Hi guys, I woke up the day after my first post and still went for the wine. I know I have a problem and I will address it soon, I just can't seem to get the motivation to make that first step. I know that if I commit to it it will be the best thing that ever happened to me and I long for the abilit...

Hello to all the new people, you are not alone in how you are feeling. That part is so important to remember. Next up, you are in a position that millions of others are in worldwide and various states of damage. But by reading this you have given serious thought to what this is doing to you. Next up...

drinking alcohol for me is that I end up feeling so bad about myself That phrase resonates so much That is the worst part of all, I can live with the hangovers and disguising and lying to people as that became second nature to me. The hardest part is when I am in my own company afterwards, looking ...

I have an allergy to booze

It wants to see me fail

Too much is riding on this

LIfe would be worse if I did and being able to be honest with people is a fantastic feeling

Dizzy Lizzy wrote:im with you on that one 40percent. but the more issues that get sorted without the drink the stronger we become. xxx

Issues never got sorted by drink, only delayed so I could get pissed then they still had to be dealt with with a hangover the next day.

Don't miss that one bit. Or looking at myself in the mirror and asking why can I not stop this and then just wishing life would end if this was to be the future.

The best bit is that's not now

Tea!

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Thought I would bump this thread up a bit. My biggest trigger is "boredom." However, I would like to address another trigger that I have and get thoughts. How many of you have the trigger of "reward"? You go a certain time without alcohol and then "reward" yourself for doing so good. What would mak...

I just told everyone too, friends, family, work colleagues. Part of the issue for me as i'm reading this is the word alcoholic and it's connotations, a helpless drunk, a tramp in an alley, a person who can stop but just keeps going of their own choosing when in reality this isn't true. When I told p...

roledog33 wrote:when I'm sober, my wife is so much nicer to me.

Echo that sentiment

Today I just don't want to. And hopefully I will feel that way tomorrow

I just behave like a selfish dick. There we go.

For me if I give in it's not about anyone else knowing, in my mind I think they all know anyway and they can all tell even when there is no way anyone could possible have a clue. If I go back there well what would it be for? To remember what was so good about it last time around? To feel like poo an...

As an alcoholic my body wants and needs drink and by not providing it that is where I become a rarity, an alcoholic who doesn't drink. This is where it then becomes a conflict, a battle of wills and sometimes I just have to tell that side of me that does creep back and say "just have one" to shut th...

Evening all

I'm back again after a little time away from here, nice to be back again.

I'd be too tempted to buy the real stuff, probably one for me to avoid trying.

Another things drink used to do was make me terrible with money, like not just how much I spent on it but also the belief that if I wanted something then I should have it, I never felt happy with the idea of saving up or waiting until I get paid next. Last month I had money left in the bank, this mo...