Hi everyone,
It feels good to finally make it back! I've just looked back at my last post on the 6th of May before going off on my holiday to France and I can see why I stumbled. It seems that once you have stopped for a while you start to think you are imagining your dependence.
I made it through the first week of the hols quite easily without drinking but then had a glass of wine one night of the second week and then again on another night. I controlled it fairly well but when I got home I started to have a glass or two sometimes and then before I knew it I was right back to how I was before I found this site. I drank a full bottle of wine last night for the third night this week and feel like crap this morning.
I had been keeping an abstinence journal and managed to lose it somewhere on the trip and I didn't start another one. I also didn't log back on here. I thought I could control it.
I didn't manage to log on until June 20, which would have been my 3 month end date. Thanks to Sheila for missing me a little and encouraging me back. Congratulations on your challenge I know you will make it this time. I am signing up and today is day 1. I feel calmer already.
