Hello all
Day 13! Darcy thank you so much for setting up the 3 week thread, Yorkie I hope to join you on there soon
To keep myself motivated today, I've made a list with things I hated about myself when I first joined in here 13 days ago and things I like about myself 13 days later. Here goes:
I hated the fact that:
1) I was recovering from yet another massive hangover
2) that I had embarassed and made a complete fool of myself
yet again in front of my friends, my boss and complete strangers
3) that I had put myself in danger (once again) while trying drunkenly to find a way home at 4 o'clock in the morning
4) that I had blackouts once again and couldn't remember half the things I had done or said
5) that I remember just enough to know that I hurt my boyfriend who I love more than anything
yet again 6) that I had to tell him that
7) that my ulcer has come back
8) that I'd become a hopeless joke to myself and all around me and totally lost my self respect
What I can appreciate and like 13 days later:
1) I'm getting ready for work and don't have to worry about a hangover or people guessing that I'm still a little drunk
2) I've really cut down on the cigarettes - if not completely, one thing at a time
3) I've been eating quite alot but haven't put on weight cause I've cut all the "drinks calories" out
4)I've regained a little of my self-respect. I'm still cringing a little bit but everyday is another day between me and that horrible drunk person I can't stand
5) My boyfriend told me yesterday how proud of me and how happy he was. There was still fear in his eyes as he doesn't believe that I will stay sober - I aim to take that fear away
6) I'm making decisions about my life - sober. I've been stuck in a rut and the same job for 5 years now, it's time for a change and to really figure out what it is I want to do
7)I've decided to take up yoga next week. Now that I'm saving on the alchohol I can actually afford classes
8) Most important so I've saved it for last, I've discovered that I'm not alone in all this. I used to think that it was just me who reacted to alchohol in this specific way, but seeing my behavioral patterns repeated in other people's lives and seeing that they have managed to quit, gives me the encouragement I needed to battle this.
Thank you everyone and all the best vibes possible and strength and encouragement in your own struggles. Big hug and love to all

First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you.
F. Scott Fitzgerald