Running from Feelings
“Many of us spend our whole lives running from feelings with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all that you are beyond that pain.”
Kahlil Gibran
I think that this is my absolute worst trigger for wanting to go get a bottle always thinking that somehow I will be abel to solve my problem or worry or stress better under the influence of alcohol. I am in my early 50’s and I am just now dealing with this problem. For most of my life, it always seemed like I, the adult in me had no say in the matter, it was so automatic to drink when I could not cope with feelings and I started this behavior when I was 5 years old. Then when I do get the bottle and think that I will be able to problem solve, It is impossible because my 5 year old just wants to play and have fun. Certainly not spoil her good time with FEELINGS! I am glad that I found this support site, I am under allot of stress right now and tonight I sure wanted to buy a bottle, but I didn’t. And I am proud of myself. I’m not very comfortable, I still have allot of stress, chest and throat pain, but I know drinking is not the answer for me anymore. I would sure like to know how some of you have learned to cope with uncomfortable feelings.
Thank You for letting me share.
Sincerely,
Tonya
I agree and realise this now. Hiding my feelings from myself because of the fear of pain, hoping that alcohol would make me feel less numb and more like a normal human.